Back!!!

Finish my last day of work, FINALLY!!!

It was a good experience, tho it was real bored sometime.

Brought my camera and wanted to take some pictures, but the office and me was too busy and i don't have the time to take pictures with anyone of them.

Whatever lah, I might be going back anyway.

Peeps out there, I am coming back???

Is the party still on?????



p/s Miss Wong Lee Ling, this is a non-emo entry especially for YOU! Do something!!!

Step Back

I thought I need a relationship.

But now why I am afraid?

Afraid of what?

I'm sorry.

Pull back what I said, we still can be friend.

Thanks for caring. Thanks for all the compliments. Thanks for being so supportive to me.

S.O.S

I am not sure with what I have done so wrong.

But she is right, I can't control what people will think of me. I gave them the right to judge on me, so I have to take it when they think I am wrong.

I would like to know where exactly is the problem.

Question with no answers. ><

Washed Away

Me, eventually washed away all the sorrow.

Tears shed, no one sees it.

Told myself, is ok, tommorow may be a worse day.

Shall I wake up for hope? Or more sorrow?

Life is a bitch.

Good Night World.

P/S

I know where is my limit and I know where I am positioning myself.

I may be a bitch, but I am not a slut.

Thanks for showing me the care and the disappointment so directly, I will take the advice.

The Fucked Up Valentines

I seriously thought that it was just a night for fun, nothing much, a bunch of people hang out together, had some good time spend over the valentines happily.

I don't understand why are there so much issues popping up like dramas, we could probably won an award for it, but I was too tired to function my brain to sort out the dramas anymore.

Telling people what I have been through last nite till the morning, cause me myself can't believe what I have seen. That was a rebound, thx to mich, giving me a chance to actually see as an outsider on how crazy and how ugly I am where I used to be.

Using love as an excuse, thought that the love given by myself means everything to everyone. That was me, what i used to be. Now, is Mich, what exactly she is now. Knowing exactly how she feel, but still I feel helpless looking at all her sorrow. I been through all this shits, but it doesnt mean that I know how to help.

The night was a spoilt, from the beginning till the end. Overwhelmed by all those shits that has and has nothing to do with me.

For My Sake

I don’t exactly know what is going on with me at the moment. Things which I think is important is still in a mess, intended to fix it up, but not now, just wanna give myself a lil break. I need no my life to be busy, all I want is just happening, fulfill my time with party and men.

But things always doesn’t seems easy for me, whenever I tend to do something to actually cheer myself up, there is always something minor but meant to be worry turns out. How am I supposed to deal with it? I hate the fact that I have to confront with all this feelings on my own; I hate the fact that I have everyone around me but still feel alone.

Life ain’t easy I know, full of challenges, full of crap, so I want to take an easy way. To stop care, to stop asking why, just take it as what it is, when it comes, I take it, for the good side, and let the bad side as what it is. I am big enough to take all the responsibilities on my own, but I am not strong enough to mend the broken heart, I gave up, so I leave it to anyone who wants to do that for me. Sounds a lot more easier isn’t it?

I hate what I heard last night, I hate my contribution on it.

I am in a dilemma, I know what they are expecting from me, but that’s definitely what I wanted to be. How to make them understand? Now, to live for someone else, or just me, myself? I tried too hard to satisfy everyone around me but myself. A major martyr, where coincidently read something about myself after someone telling me that I am that kind of people. Felt like a loser yelling everyday:” Use me! Use me!” Then all the users turns up and fully utilize me as I offer it to them, so why not? No one to be blame but myself, giving too much of free services where I actually worth more than that.

But now what? When I decided to live on the way I want, someone whom I really care reminds me that they won’t like me to be in that way.

D I L L E M M A